This was my most recent facebook update. I am full and it DOES feel fantastic. So, I've started and abandoned three or four blogs in my lifetime but my motivation behind this particular blog is much different. I am using this blog in hopes of gaining a little more introspection and reflection on why I eat the way I do, specifically how I respond to food cravings and just generally gaining a better understanding on my eating habits and impulses.
Back story!
I grew up on carbs-- bread, rice, LOVE noodles, LOVE pizza, crackers, cheez-its, chips, all the carby snacks and foods. I also ate all types of meat and have always been a food-LOVER and an adventurous eater. I was also a very serious athlete (tennis!) and played through four grueling years of division I tennis. Like many people and athletes assume, I carb loaded constantly, filling myself with sandwiches, burritos, pizza, and a plethora of asian noodles but paid little attention to my protein levels, my consumption of fruit/veggies, and where my food was coming from. A typical meal for me was noodle soup or pizza or a big burrito.. not the worst things but certainly no where near healthy!
This all changed two years ago when I stumbled upon the idea of a "low carb" diet and the 4 hour body (Tim Ferris) from a friend who was very fit, but, over the course of a few months, had shed quite a bit of fat. This intrigued me because he was already a healthy person and the concept of limiting carb intake was extremely foreign to me. Actually, a few years prior to this, when I was a freshman in college, a man I met had told me about the paleo diet. I thought he was clinically insane and dismissed it altogether. This time around, it peaked my interest so I started exploring Tim Ferris's book and eventually, I made my way to Mark Sisson's concept of "living primal" and eating paleo, lifting heavy, etc. Mark Sisson's site and resources are truly invaluable to me and I respect him and his ideas tremendously.
I am starting this blog because every day is still a struggle for me. I challenged myself to do a 30-day primal challenge recently and failed after a week because I had some chocolate. Obviously, in the grand scheme of things, chocolate can be easily incorporated into a very healthy diet but the point is, I failed AFTER A WEEK. I couldn't last more than 7 days without cheating. Seriously.. and those of you who know me know that I am generally a strong-willed, very disciplined person.
My typical pattern is to consistently eat healthy for a couple weeks (2-3) followed by a three or four day binge of shitty, disgusting, horrible food that makes me feel horribly about myself. If I could eat well for a few weeks and have one meal or even one full day of crappy but delicious foods, that would be perfectly fine! even wonderful to have those little cheat meals/day! but I can't stop after a day. Once I "fall off the wagon", so they say, I'm completely off, crippled, broken, and weak for days, feasting on all the oreos, cakes, cookies, pizza, and cornbread I can get my hands on. It's like the floodgates open and I know that there is only a limited of time I could eat all this shit food so I stuff my face until I feel sick.
What is frustrating is that I know this about myself and yet I still can't stop. This pattern disturbs me both physically and psychologically and after my latest failure, I am determined to improve. I hope writing about my daily challenges help me work through these issues and I'm excited about it!
Back story!
I grew up on carbs-- bread, rice, LOVE noodles, LOVE pizza, crackers, cheez-its, chips, all the carby snacks and foods. I also ate all types of meat and have always been a food-LOVER and an adventurous eater. I was also a very serious athlete (tennis!) and played through four grueling years of division I tennis. Like many people and athletes assume, I carb loaded constantly, filling myself with sandwiches, burritos, pizza, and a plethora of asian noodles but paid little attention to my protein levels, my consumption of fruit/veggies, and where my food was coming from. A typical meal for me was noodle soup or pizza or a big burrito.. not the worst things but certainly no where near healthy!
This all changed two years ago when I stumbled upon the idea of a "low carb" diet and the 4 hour body (Tim Ferris) from a friend who was very fit, but, over the course of a few months, had shed quite a bit of fat. This intrigued me because he was already a healthy person and the concept of limiting carb intake was extremely foreign to me. Actually, a few years prior to this, when I was a freshman in college, a man I met had told me about the paleo diet. I thought he was clinically insane and dismissed it altogether. This time around, it peaked my interest so I started exploring Tim Ferris's book and eventually, I made my way to Mark Sisson's concept of "living primal" and eating paleo, lifting heavy, etc. Mark Sisson's site and resources are truly invaluable to me and I respect him and his ideas tremendously.
I am starting this blog because every day is still a struggle for me. I challenged myself to do a 30-day primal challenge recently and failed after a week because I had some chocolate. Obviously, in the grand scheme of things, chocolate can be easily incorporated into a very healthy diet but the point is, I failed AFTER A WEEK. I couldn't last more than 7 days without cheating. Seriously.. and those of you who know me know that I am generally a strong-willed, very disciplined person.
My typical pattern is to consistently eat healthy for a couple weeks (2-3) followed by a three or four day binge of shitty, disgusting, horrible food that makes me feel horribly about myself. If I could eat well for a few weeks and have one meal or even one full day of crappy but delicious foods, that would be perfectly fine! even wonderful to have those little cheat meals/day! but I can't stop after a day. Once I "fall off the wagon", so they say, I'm completely off, crippled, broken, and weak for days, feasting on all the oreos, cakes, cookies, pizza, and cornbread I can get my hands on. It's like the floodgates open and I know that there is only a limited of time I could eat all this shit food so I stuff my face until I feel sick.
What is frustrating is that I know this about myself and yet I still can't stop. This pattern disturbs me both physically and psychologically and after my latest failure, I am determined to improve. I hope writing about my daily challenges help me work through these issues and I'm excited about it!
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